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About Julie Ann Within 3 yrs the boxes grown into a large stall at festival like Glade Sunrise and the Bigg Green Gathering with my then Partner Paul.I evolved the recycled clothes styles and leared more and more about crystals and 2007 I opened Baraka a shop in Boscombe Bournemouth, baraka retail was loved by local people, selling a wide range of ethical and spiritual products, from smudge to fairy dust,
And an amazing collection of clothes, I
love to be colourful and to dress to express my uniqueness.I believe
that fashion is an outer expression of how we feel and that we need
different clothes to reflect our moods. I love selecting clothes for
Baraka that celebrate our individuality. by Julie Ann Horrox
Three years ago I was living in Moss Side Manchester where there were regular shootings. I had consciously let go of my home, my business, my car and pensions. Both of my children had been taken off me by social services. I was taking ecstasy, acid, speed and coke every weekend, smoking and drinking like a bastard and I thought that this was freedom.
Around Christmas time 2000 I found myself in a second hand bookshop in Manchester. In one hand I held a David Ike book and in the other hand Leonard Ore and Sondra Ray. I was ready to try something new so I took 'Rebirthing In The New Age' home with me. I didn't put it down for 2 days, reading it and re-read it, integrating all of the concepts by relating them to my own life experiences. WOW this was it! I had finally found what I had been searching for since I gave up my business 2 years before.
But where on earth was I going to find a rebirther in Manchester, this book had been written in LA in the 1970s. I dragged myself back out into reality, and went to see my friend Andrea for coffee. We chatted about the usual stuff partying and club scene gossip. Then suddenly she reached over and handed me a brown envelope folded in half, "Here's the name of that rebirther you wanted , she said. I was gob-smaked, but how did you know? Oh my God! It is a miracle!
She had given me Christine McCallem's phone number. Christine became my rebirther, she was amazing, she listened to me, and she was my friend, my councillor, my mother, my sister, and my therapist. She never judged me or criticised me, always supporting me in making choices for myself. For the first time in my life I was experiencing unconditional love for myself, without the use of chemicals.
The first illegal drug I took was ecstasy (pills); it was so perfect for me because I love dancing. For the first time in my life it felt safe to feel pleasure in my body, and for other people to see me enjoying it. I got hooked on pills because they reconnected me to my divine energy, to my intuition and inner knowing. Every Friday and Saturday night I felt connected to mankind to God and Goddess, I felt a sense of belonging, of unity with humanity, part of a family and that I fitted in. For the first time in what felt like eons I knew that had a purpose, and that no matter how small a part I played that my life did make a difference.
As if by telepathy through the atmosphere and the music created at techno and trance parties all of this knowledge began to flow into my being. I recognised universal truths and instantly integrated them into my consciousness. When I was opened up by drugs magic and synchronicity flowed all around me. However back in the real world, I found it a struggle to sustain my new magical reality. I felt like I was living inside and outside of the matrix at the same time, life became more and more confusing.
Drugs freed my mind temporarily, but it didn't last. I yearned for freedom from the pain, misery and monotony of everyday life. I had already tried to find it in Religion, Marriage, TV, Money, sex, drink, and now drugs. But in vain, the search continued!!!!! A very common chill out room comment was: "Why can't we feel like this all the time".
Because I was experiencing feeling so great temporarily, with all my blockages removed by chemicals. My frustration grew because my inner being knew the eternal truth; it was possible to feel like that all the time. I knew that heaven and hell were only states of mind; the highs and lows of drug use had shown me that. One thing I have to praise my Sunday school education for is that I never lost faith in getting to heaven; I was not going to give up until I made it. My undying belief in utopia inspired by the best pills in Manchester finally lead me to intuitively pick up 'that book' and to discover Rebirthing.
Although 3 years ago intellectually I understood all of the new age concepts. For example, go with the flow, stop looking to hard, or leap and the net will appear. This being so I was still lacking the tools to integrate this knowledge into my life permanently. I was ready to change and Rebirthing has supported me in making it all possible.
I thought that drugs had opened me up and changed my life but Rebirthing has done so much more, and the changes are permanent. The Rebirthing community have become my true family and they have supported me in healing the huge rifts in my own family. I now have a gorgeous new daughter Daisy who is completely my responsibility, with no involvement from social services.
My pauper mentality has shifted massively; before I started Rebirthing making money was such hard work. Now I do what I love and I have more money than I’ve ever had. The power of the breath has assisted me in removing the patterns that blocked me from receiving money, love and sex.
I have cleared huge amounts of energy around my sexuality; I now enjoy sex at least 100 times more than before I started Rebirthing. I went out and bought myself sexy underwear for the first time in my life after completing Self Mastery One training, now I can't imagine life without it.
The Rebirthing community has loved and supported me to be me. I didn't know who that was 3 years ago because I was so used to doing stuff to please others. It was very scary in the beginning accepting that I was 100% responsible for creating my story. And my god what a tangled web of dramas I had created. Through the breath I was able to accept my colourful history as being perfect for me.
Rebirthing works on multidimensional levels and the glittering inner crystal of who I really am has become polished by the breath to reveal my true self, beautiful, glamorous and sexy, as you can now see. The connection to God and Goddess that I felt off my face on drugs a few hours every weekend I now feel 'the majority' of the time. The breath is my new drug, it's free, there are no side effects and you don't have to go to Columbia to get it.
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